broken and lost

i am a broken song

which never can be mend

my heart sinks low

as i take my walk ahead

i had a beautiful start

but my ending won't long for much

i cannot ask for more

god has given a lot as such

i wish my hapiness to be given to my beloveds.

for they who know me well

i cannot keep their wishes fair.

i am a lost bird

who does not know where to land

but i know this

if i knew this , i would be the

best in the whole strand.

i walk, i cross

i stay and see

hypocrisy, rudeness, emptiness ,cruelty walking next to me

i turn my back against it

i walk

i cross

see it still folowing me

growing larger with every step

THIS IS IT

i stop!

stop and turn front

walk towards it

chase it

follow it

i see it running now

i see it scared of me

....

i smile and blow out and it vanishes...

the last day when i faced my back to fear of such things

and now they fear to come near me.

soul searchers to lonely paths to muddy boots to twisted trees like twisted life...
broken raw pieces of wood, unfinished idol of maa durga, sitting alone and talking to the one you love, loved but will never be able to see them again.
How much and how many of us do wander and think about such things.. Life is so much complicated and yet every moment every second it teaches us.

I learned how you can't get away with your guilt's when you are pointing someone else for his mistakes coz the other three fingers BANG are right there pointing at you.
Every day passes by and we just forget to see those who want rather than what we want.
We don't look at them coz we have a hectic life.
But what worth is this life when you can't have a peaceful sleep, when the unfinished idol is just not getting finished it breaks every time you try to put things together,

what worth is life when you can't see yourself more just walking LONELY,

what worth is life when you can't unfold the meanings behind the twisters..

coz the soul searchers are just waiting right there to take you away so try not doing what you can do try doing what you feel is very difficult and you can't do.. and when you do that there will be exceptional happiness on your face..

try giving a smile on some body's face today.

a fear : to the one above

I fear to touch a flower

I fear to touch you

You are beautiful and delicate

I am rough and ugly

I am no more present

your presence is always felt.

Thing that i deny are becoming a nightmare.

things that i wish for you are coming as true as you

i no more belong to you

i am part of the world

for me a sin has been committed

i am born

i can't be more apologetic

i can't say more

i found a beautiful you in you

and i pray i always stay within you.....

Walking doesn't mean we are living.

Feeling doesn't mean we are living.

A touch is no proof of living.

May be we are living death.

Struggling, Strangling to cross every bridge to overcome death.

Believing is what we are living.

Belief is what me and you are living.

Life is bounded to faults.

may be big may be small.

In a day what we do is done.

We then realise them and then regret then

Regret them. But why,

Regret coz we are sorry

to ourselves for committing them;

If just time could return

If just i could be the 'one'

If just...

i could change the world of me within me.

but life of a day, will never return

so, don't hide yourself into the darkness

because you cannot hide yourself from the light which is within you.

Accept the faults,

Realise them and

Solve them.

There is the one HE who always sees you.....

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I have never expressed myself , the real me maybe..

every time i tried to i got influenced by someone or the other, persuaded by someone or the other to look up things differently..sometimes it worked and sometimes i cribbed why i dint hear my heart...The write ups i m going to present here are somethings which i have always been in my heart and expressing it is a little difficult..

my journey of life, observation of people through some poetic forms and write ups.